2007-05-18 - 4:01 p.m.

Surprises
I am sooooo sorry I have not posted in months. That is soooo not like me. But anyhow things have been pretty good. SO much has been going on so I am going to cut and paste my entries from my other blog in here. In order of their appearance in my other blog. So here it goes.

March 27 2007

Well we got here on Thursday night. Jim drove back to Ottawa Friday and returned back here Sunday. I worked Sat and Sun at the agency. Pretty good shifts, nothing out to of the ordinary at all. Today I worked at the school board and I am already scheduled for tomorrow. I am hoping to work all week. That would be awesome.. The weather is beautiful today we have the windows open. I even took Cinder outside for a little bit this afternoon to let her explore she didn't go very far. I put a collar and a tag on her in case she got away people would know where she lived and how to contact us. Anyways I should get going. Things to do....I work tomorrow and it should be fun tomorrow we have outings with the kids, the classroom has potential to be volatile but it makes the day go by really quickly. Take care all.

April 6 2007

Ok haven't written in a little while. So here is the latest scoop. Parents will be home next Friday, this means house needs to be cleaned. I am working lots, yesterday I worked 16 hours. I worked at one job then turned around and worked till midnight at the other. We get possession of the new house on the 19th woohoo I am soo tired of living out of boxes. The cats are tired of being cooped up in the basement. I miss my friend...YASMIN and MARK...but I get to talk to them via email and messenger. My mom said she bought something for my bathroom...so I am all excited.

On another topic I have something very shocking for me to share with people. And I feel like I am a hypocrite and felt bad about thinking it but I just couldn't help it.

The other night we went to the casino for dinner it is in Michigan only about a 10 minute drive from our house. It was a buffet, it was a beautiful buffet with plenty to choose from. Now I know what it is like to be obese and go to a buffet, a lot of times you are worried what people are thinking, of course you could take the same amount as any other person in the restaurant and yet you are ashamed and wonder if people are thinking in their heads some fat jokes or comments. Anyways, as everyone knows I have lost .... basically an entire person, I go to the buffet not to eat a lot and of course the restaurant makes money off of me because I definitely do not eat the amount of food worth the cost but what I do like and it is worth the cost to me is that I am not limited to a piece of meat and a salad as is the case with most restaurants. I can have a little taste of everything. I can have a piece of potato a little salad 1 rib, one piece of chicken, a few veggies basically I take a tablespoon of everything and most often I don't eat all of what is on my plate. Sometimes one little fork full and I am done, but I get a variety which is nice. Then because desert is there I can have a piece of desert and just have one bite and be satisfied and not feel guilty that I spent say 6 bucks on a piece of cake and wasted it. Anyways I am diverting. While we were there these two ladies came in. and they were huge...and when I say huge I am not trying to be mean or callous but they were huge. They were about my hight, 5 foot 5 and at my heaviest I was 330lbs they were easily 500 pounds. They both could hardly walk and in fact needed the assistance of a walker to help them maneuver. They sat a table set for four which isn't a big deal as THE MAN and I sat at a table for four but it is sort of a big deal when they didn't have enough room for the food on their table. OK so here are two not obese and not morbidly obese but SUPER Morbidly Obese people walking with walkers these walkers are the ones that have the flat platform on it to sit on when you get tired. SO they are walking around the buffet table with a plate in one hand two plates on the platforms where you would sit and a plate in the other hand. with the heels of their hands on the handles of their walkers. They both had pop. Ok let me emphasize that these plates were not midly fully. They were WAY OVERLY full. I am talking heaping mounds of food on every plate they had. Ok I felt embarrassed for them. I know this is not nice for me to say and I know this makes me a hypocrite but come on. When you are sooooo big that you can hardly walk isn't that your sign. I can understand eating because you are hungry but really do people ever really get that hungry...is it not just gluttony at that point. and let me state that these people CLEANED off their plates. I don't know if they went back up for more because we left but I just felt embarrassed and ashamed. I feel like it is people who are like that that give the general population of Obese people the stigma of being lazy, gluttons, pigs and overeater's when not all of us were or are. I feel bad that I feel like this but please share with me what I should think or feel. I feel bad for these people because I know that they are probably frustrated, sad, depressed lonely people who may be trying to fill a void inside them with food. But I have always been and will probably always feel that you get stared at when you are outside the norm. It is something I have come to terms with, people will make judgments right or wrong by what you do say or how you portray yourself and these women just don't portray themselves like they care about themselves. Of course I did not stare but I felt like I was on one of those Dr Phil episodes where they have hidden cameras to record the reactions of people who witness outrageous behaviour, or try to record the reactions of people who witness things that may be outside the norm of the society. I also feel bad and wondering am I turning into one of those judgmental people who I always worried were passing judgments on me? I felt sorry for those women and wanted to run up to those women and yell at them to stop and that there is a way to be healthy, enjoy food and not have to over eat over indulge and just be like "that". Anyways that is something I have wanted to share since Tuesday and just never had the chance. Anyways it is midnight and I need to get going. Your thoughts and comments are welcome.

As for my mood today I put QUIXOTIC....I know I could look it up but I am too lazy right now...I don't even know what it means but if you do please share with me. I just thought I would try to learn something new today and use a word I never saw before. Good NIGHT

April 15 2007

New stuff

It's getting closer and closer to the date. We are going to pick up the surround system speakers we just bought. This week we are going to pay for the new furniture we picked out and tonight we are going to look at a hot tub we found. So everything is falling into place nicely. Anyways just leaving a quick blurp about the small things we are doing this week. HOpefully I get called to work everyday this week except Thursday I need the hours. and want the hours.

ADDED APRIL 17th

We went and saw the hot tub. You know those situations where you pull up to the house and you just know this is not right. This was one of those times. The driveway was full of garbage and I am not talking about just junk I am talking actual smelly garbage ...bags of it. The driveway was all mud. The door looked like there was every sticky little handprint on it from the time it was installed ohhh about 30 years ago. Dogs are barking and dirty little children running around the house crying.. We were told to go through the junk at the side of the house. MMMHMMM we do we get to the back and all you smell is dog feces. The deck has missing planks, and the hot tub is full of dirt and really nothing we were looking for. Little girl was standing at the patio doors could hardly see her for the dirt on the windows with a dog eating her grilled cheese off her plate and she is crying. We politely said we didn't think this is what we were looking for a left. Lets hope we have better luck next time.

April 26 2007

Ok just quick cause I don't have time. We got possession of our new house on April 19th and we spent all weekend painting and getting it ready. Sunday was the big move with most of the big furniture in and we spent the first night in our new house. Things are still crazy disorganized. Will be till we get shelves and such situated. I am working full time and trying to unpack all at once. Internet is not installed at the new house yet not until Wednesday so if you don't see me that is why. Hope everyone is well and I will be back to chat shortly. Like Wednesday or Thursday.

May 5 2007

OK when we went and saw the hot tub you have to remember it was built in to and dropped into the guys deck. So the size was deceiving. So I went to the hot tub place that it was bought at and I talked to the people there who is very well aware of which hot tub I bought. I asked them how heavy the hot tub is and how many people they thought I would need to move it. They told me it was heavy but not too bad and that I would need about 5 people. SO today was the day we were moving it. We had a supersized snowmachine trailer that we rented, there was myself, Jim, my mom dad my cousin's husband Ian and a friend of my parents. So six of us. We get there and my dad nearly had a heart attack, I felt bad because I knew it was big but didn't realize how big it really was and well after trying to lift it there was no way that the six of us were even going to budge the sucker. SO back to the drawing board. I am having one of the hot tub companies come and move it for us. Jim my dad and Ian are building a lower part of the deck to set the hot tub on so we don't have to put it on our main deck. Basically we are putting the hot tub in front of the deck this way next summer we can build around it. Jim already took the railing down so that the hot tub can sit up to the side of it and we can just step into the hot tub from the deck. They are building a platform this weekend for it to sit on. All in all it is going to work out. But holy heck we were definitely not moving it.

May 8th 2007

GOT IT!

The job interview I had last week went surprisingly well. Yeah after the interview I was left feeling kind of down, not thinking I did to well. Well apparently I did better then I thought I did and they called me back for the second phase. In essence so long as all my security checks out I am hired. I even filled out all the human resources paperwork and have my two training days scheduled. In case people are unsure this is to work with young offenders in a secure facility. I am psyched about this. This is where I wanted to be. Of course I am not giving up my other jobs as none of my jobs are full time so it will all supplement everything, I work what I can at the school board, then I pick up 1 or 2 shifts at the agency and work 1 or 2 shifts at the facility. YEAH! I have sooo many jobs and tooo little time to work them all I think. But at least this way I can be a little more choosie with the shifts I do take. I don't need to take all kinds of overnight shifts, I am not stuck in one place. And all my jobs pay really really well! YEAH FOR ME! Things are looking up way way up, considering where I was a few months ago.

Ok so that is some of the things that has been going on.

This weekend we are having a house warming party. My parents are hosting it at our new house. My house is clean, the hot tub is working, everything looks great and THE MAN is going ot be very very surprised when he finds that his parents actually came up from Ottawa. They are staying at my parents. We are going there for supper tonight but he doesn't know that his parents are going to be there. He has been moody all day and just terrible to talk to and have him do anything. He complains when anyone tries to help him out. I keep telling him one day he will be like that and realize that people went way out of their way to make him feel good and all he does is spit on them and that he will feel bad when this happens. I know he will feel like that tonight when he walks into my parents and his parents are sitting there. Anyways I will try to keep this up to date a little more. I will let you all know how tonight goes.

CIAO




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